25th of November, 2020.
Today is finally the day I am planning on submitting my resignation of Lieutenant & Director of Operations at Los Santos Emergency Medical Services to find myself again and find meaning in this forsaken life. I cannot stand working here any longer under this administration & chief. It's causing pain to myself and forcing myself to work daily. I. CANNOT. DO. THIS. ANYMORE.
I had been on shift driving around on duty, awaiting a nine-one-one call but I could feel myself losing my mind slowly as there hasn’t been a singular call yet. As I sat there staring at the department issued tablet, I remember writing up my resignation notice, I felt myself stumbling in the moment writing it as my hands were shaking holding the tablet.
I remember it taking a while as I remembered every moment I had and how I worked my way up. I remember how I finished typing up my notice of resignation and the moment as I slowly tap the submit button on the government site. I remember the exact moment as I brought my radio up to the mouth and began speaking “Lieutenant Paige is disbanding bravo-four for the last time, and heading 10-9 end of service” into the radio. I wasn’t sure what to do after stepping off duty. After stepping outside the locker room for the finale time, I recall ringing Ava and spoking to her about being lost in life without purpose and unsure what to do or how to continue on living. I briefly mentioned the possibility of joining the Los Santos Motorcycle Club and finding meaning with new people in life.
The moment I joined the Los Santos Motorcycle Club I had found a new family, I met with a bunch of the members and just spoke for ages until I decided to take a stroll down Paleto Bay and which I had walked around for a while before entering the local dealership and purchasing my first motorcycle. I can't stop thinking about that feeling of first getting onto a motorcycle, and taking it out on the highway and opening her up.
As I drove into Paleto Bay, I ran into Delilah and meeting up with her. I still recall the moment of cruising around Paleto Bay alongside her and feeling like I've finally fit in somewhere. I didn't have to worry or stress about anything, I had the wind going through my hair without a single worry in the world.
Until next time,