Hi, I've read the roleplay guide. And honestly, I know I'm a bad roleplayer in my current state. Even though I joined back in 2020, don't be fooled. I am not a veteran. I didn't do good roleplay. My interactions have always been me inside a different shell of a character. That means I end up getting really affected by what happens in-game (my fault, i know). I did some gang RP back in 2020 for the brief period I played and it was easy because my role was really just henchman and people randomly approached me to recruit me. I did not play my character ANY differently. My interactions werent that terrible back then. I wasn't super close to anyone but things were okay and manageable. But actually, I think i only interacted with a smaller amount of people and that was pretty much it.
I leave this server for a couple of years because of life and I came maybe a couple of weeks ago. Pretty much all my old contacts are gone (no response). Okay, no problem. I try to go to the same spots to find new people to meet and network with. Those spots are dead. It seems like there was no longer some kind of central hub. Instead, people have seemed to split up into localized bubbles that are insanely difficult to find and get into, if you're lucky. I am struggling to build bonds with anyone else. I try to be nice and respectful, I don't force interactions on those who aren't willing, I will following along/entertain the RP interactions/scenarios/tomfoolery that other people create. I'm super self-conscious about if I'm annoying someone. I communicate via text. I excuse myself if its obvious that my presence isn't welcome. Even though I've met with a lot of people these weeks, feels like nothing is sticking. And I almost get the sense that either people don't like me or are not interested enough to entertain interactions with me. I'm stuck. It sucks to play solo. Not sure where I can improve.
I did not intend this post to be a "complaining" post.
