Another day, another unwanted fight.
In the middle of the war, Samuel Rojas' past suddenly caught up to him. His only purpose in the city was to help rehabilitate criminals at the Department of Corrections, but all of that went to an end. Once he became part of the Dojin-Kai Samuel's new goal was to help the community, help the legal workers, and value the life of his family, the Dojin-Kai. He began reminiscing the good times he had with his family, including the girl he loves. This was all until the war commenced and people he cared about started falling. One of the most important people in this city to Samuel was a fellow Dojin-Kai member, a girl who he was in love with. The one who was kidnapped by the Council during the war.
This girl was being chased by council members, and Samuel was right besides her trying to help her. In a split second, she crashed into a wall and was held hostage. Samuel was there, fighting back his impulses of shooting everyone, since there was a large amount of people holding her. A tear fell from his eye as he watched them take the woman he loves away. Samuel's involvement in this event, led him to get chased by Zetas around the city. The chase went on for a couple of hours, until it stopped. After it finished, he became obsessed in trying to find a way to rescue her. He searched every single Headquarter in hopes of finding where they were holding her. He had no luck in doing so...
As the hours went by, there were still no news of the kidnapping. The fact that maybe this girl might get killed sank in, and made Samuel feel guilty for not stepping up to protect her. He began blaming himself for her capture, and for everything that she might be going through at that moment. He resorted to drinking his life away.
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Guilt
All of the guilt from the lives he has taken during the war, the loss of his beloved brothers, and the capture of the girl he loves made him believe that there was no hope, that there was no light at the end of the tunnel. All of this hit him harder when he got heavily drunk, and so he believed the only way out of this unjust world is to leave it.
He then catches himself in the middle of the act, and remember what his brothers had told him. He remembered the mental training he had with his brother Bradley Castle. Even though times are tough, we have to keep pushing forward, he said to himself. We are stronger than this.
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Realization
A couple of hours later, Samuel was detained by the Police Department for crimes he had committed. He has plenty of time to think about everything while being inside that cell. To which he concluded with:
"What kind of person have I become?" he said.
While in the cell, he broke down and realized he needed to seek professional help to get through these hard times, and become stronger to stay with his family and protect them.
He arrived at Central Medical Department, shaking, asking for a CRU unit. He then meets with an old acquaintance, Seth Blackwood. They spent hours talking about Samuel's life, and how much it has changed. How he just wants to protect his family, but feels like he has no power to do so. He began talking about the monster he has turned into. The pain the war is causing him by seeing his old friends on the other side of the war. Dr. Blackwood understood his situation, and gave him plenty of advice, which gave Samuel a different perspective on the matter.
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After spending hours talking to Seth Blackwood about his life, and his feelings - Samuel decided to keep his head high, and look towards a brighter future, which will soon be seen. To keep looking for the girl with all of his might, and to value the time with his brothers and sisters, since he does not know when is the last moment he will have with them.
All of these events have changed Samuel Rojas forever. Once he makes a full recovery, he will seek justice for his fallen brothers. He will not think twice before sacrificing himself for his family.
This is his awakening.