Not sure if you've heard that but the best stories that you can tell or hear, is the stories where a man gets fucked up and turns shit over. Believe man, you can do this.
I went through shit aswell in the summer and felt depressed, did lots of psychodelics to make reality easier, smoother and to forgot about things I went through but that was mistake man, I started hitting weights in gym and that kicked out the stress and on the other side--- im in the best fucking shape!
Don't feel sad about the game assets that you lost, play in the moment. Step by step, moment by moment you grind and get good memories of the game and people that involve in you and thats what you should remember and focus on. You can always start again and redo your things. Maybe join EMS or PD this time and play things differently.
Good luck pal, hope you get happy again like I did :)))